The Past is Our Road to the Future


In my time on the internet I have seen many things, learned many things, made mistakes and embarrassed the f*ck out of myself without realizing it until now.

As embarrassing as my old comments, posts and the like we’re, I can’t change them. I can’t change the fact that I used my name, wrote stories that were a little messy and threw them out unto the world. I can’t change that I was protective over my favorite roleplayers/writers (maybe a little too protective). They’re just humans like I am. No matter how amazing the writing, I shouldn’t have put them on a pedestal in my head. I can’t change that now. I can’t change that I was crazy when playing Dragons of Atlantis, either.

I can’t change that I made a ton of accounts because I was scared of people attacking me online. Now I have thick skin and words will slide off because I know my worth (I hope).

All I can do is start fresh—WITH MY SAME NAME—and stop changing because of a fear sitting in the back of my head. With God on my side I shouldn’t have anything to fear. I can write my fan fiction and my actual work in peace. My internet past is with me, yes, but it is not who I am today. I didn’t do anything bad or awful, thank god. I was just messy with everything. MESSY. I cleaned up my messy profiles and stuff as best as I could. What matters now is the future, not the messy book promotions I posted or the messy bios or accidentally attaching a weird name to fan fiction.

What matters now is the future.

I’m going to be less and give more words. I will write and share more of what I want to write. Starting with my wattpad.

I’ve revamped it to prodigaldragon but I’m keeping my older stories on there. I also revamped my Twitter: @thedragonchild, instead of using a new one. I am in the process of revamping all my stories on Smashwords and putting them back out there. This includes older ones that were unpublished. After that I will head to Amazon and fix what’s broken there, too. The same for Goodreads. As for socialness, I’ll only be sticking to this blog, Twitter and maybe Facebook. Being on this blog makes it easier to socialize with fans. As you’ve already noticed I revamped this blog. It’s quite refreshing to revamp and still have a bit of my old self. Like, “hey, I came from there.” Maybe a young author in the future will be like me: messy with their online life. She or he ours learn from my experience. 

I’m glad to have you guys, my loyal followers, with me on this journey. Thank you so much for being with me! And thank you so much for not judging me!

My Bloody Little Kitty – A Story that Needs to Come Back


Going back to Wattpad today had the unexpected re-emergence of an old fond memory. Back when I was a budding teen author before I spent my hiatus on Instagram I was an avid user of Quotev and Wattpad. I didn’t use Quotev for long since I disliked the clunky interface but the site does have a (small) place in my heart. It introduced me to the only Internet-posted original fiction story that I’d ever read in full (or in its case, up to the chapter before it was deleted).

That story is My Bloody Little Kitty.


Fuck, even the name makes me want to read some emo stories in hopes of finding one like that.

Yes the story had problems that some stories written by teens have (like word play or in some places a dry use of words) but it flowed nicely! Flow is incredibly important and the flow and pacing of the story is what kept me hooked. There weren’t a lot of useless descriptions either. It was straight and to-the-freaking-point. It flowed well.

My problem with most books is they take their sweet-ass time on descriptions and shit (excuse my French!) but not Meghan’s story. It was to the point, descriptions were minimal but you are able to visualize things. The chapters are short too which is good for someone like me: a person who clicks out with long stuff. The whole story was amazing and lusty and, if I remember correctly, sweet.

Meghan wrote a gem.

I loved Parker, the red-head Sawyer and the green-haired Wolf. I loved Sawyer’s protective possessiveness over Parker. I love the love triangle that was being set up before our eyes and threatened to break apart the Sawyer X Parker ship.

Then, one day, the story was gone.

Gone. Deleted.

Meghan’s profile was deleted too.

I lamented and hoped Meghan would return. It’s been 3 years and she hasn’t. The story was reposted on Wattpad by someone else but only the first two chapters are there. I and (after reading the comments on Wattpad) many others want this story to return. I personally don’t care if it’s unable to be completed. Don’t stress yourself if you lost interest, Meghan. I want all 21 (or 23?) chapters and any unfinished chapters to be posted back on the internet again so I can read it and enjoy it. If you finish it that makes it even better.

Meghan, if you’re reading this, please please PLEASE bring this story back. If you’re afraid to, use a pen name and pretend you know the author! It’s better to be yourself though because your fans outnumber the haters.

If you know Meghan could you please pass this onto her? I’m praying for this story’s return. Is she well?? Is she still alive?

If you are her parents, your daughter is a wonderful writer!!

Meghan, if you’re considering turning My Bloody Little Kitty into a real book through self publishing, please don’t change it too much. Don’t add words in or do those awful long rambling descriptions that authors do. Or do what you think is right.

I know there’s a remake of this story called Cheshire. I read the first chapter and it doesn’t flow as well as Meghan’s story and it has rambling descriptions in some places. I only read (or skimmed) chapter 1 and it couldn’t hold me.

Also, It changed Parker’s name to Aiden. To me that also ruined it. Names are important. Parker sounds like a baby name; a name for someone in the process of growing up. Aiden sounds like the name of someone growing up and into themselves. That name wasn’t suitable for Parker whom is basically a baby in the story. He’s so innocent and he’s still growing up.

Lastly, the picture for him didn’t fit how he acts.

I’m sure the story has some good points, though and if you’re curious go read it. I might if I can focus my attention onto it.

I want to do my own remake of My Bloody Little Kitty. When I complete some of my writing projects I totally will. Maybe I’ll even add my own characters in place of Parker, Sawyer and Wolf so I won’t lose interest in writing it. I’m thinking Sylvio, Josh and a young version of Prince Dragon will do.

Meghan, if you’re out there, please bring your story back. There are nostalgic fans dying to read it. Even if it’s the initial 21 chapters.

Please ;-;

A Flash Fic A Day #0: S C R E A M S


I have begun a “flash fic a day” challenge and I swear to The Lord I will NOT fail. I originally intended to have only original fiction so I could expand upon my stories but it’s too late in the night to post the story I want. Instead I am opening up with fan fiction focused on my favorite gem: Lapis Lazuli. (Hence the reason this is #0) Since its at night and this isn’t tied to my original fiction I can craft this safely for posting. It’s based on a flash fiction prompt by Nancy Stohlman: #15: Write a story that involves a reoccurring and/or deep dark fear. This will be interesting. Please enjoy!

You are mine!! You are ALWAYS SUPPOSE TO BE MINE!!!!

Lapis, STOP!!

No, Peridot. He is mine and I am taking him with me.

She stays on the cold ground and let’s her tears splash upon the solid-water floor. Her actions on that day disgusted her—forever ingrained, in her memory and their memory. She hasn’t spoken to the Crystal Gems since her embarrassing defeat. She wants to tell him sorry but all she can do is wallow in her pillar of water and cry.

“They still remember it. I know they do. It’s even evidenced on that Connie girl’s camera.

My past is not today. My past is not today.

I led him on, that’s what they think. I told him how I felt despite not knowing him truly—he knows it. He remembers. Will he hate me for it when I become a diamond gem?”

Lapis looks to the stars for guidance. She cannot ask Blue Diamond because Blue Diamond is dead and gone (trapped…in a bubble). She is alone on this issue and must guide herself by herself.

“What will my diamond think when—or if—I tell her?”

Blue Diamond used to say “Lapis, you are so sweet and kind. Don’t let other gems tear you down. Stand proud, as my gem.”

Whatever may happen, Lapis cannot risk it and she cannot let it rule her. She finally gets off the floor and stands on her own two feet. She has already decided what she wants to do. She will ask for an apology and then she will live as she always should have done. 

“Okay, Steven. I am coming.”

With a strong push of her wings she sets off for Beach City.

Thank you for reading!!! I hope this wasn’t too weird. It is Lapis x Steven. He is older in this and she tries to take him away because she didn’t want to lose his friendship to Connie and the other gems. This cases her to act out and confess her love—which might not have been love to begin with. She fell in love with his character and does not truly love him.

As I was writing this I NEEEEED a sad song to listen to. That song is Heavy Price Paid from the original Halo 2 soundtrack. I swear that game has the best main menu music ever. Also, the picture used as a featured image inspired the story. That image + the song are a great combination. I would like to know who the artist is and if there is a full size version.

If you enjoyed this please support me on Patreon ^_^

http://www.patreon.com/oshidoshi you could get a cool reward like a flash story based on a character you name!

Talking Sunday: The Ending of Yu Gi Oh ZEXAL (No Spoilers!)


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One anime I’ve come across has grabbed me by the heart strings and has never let me go. That anime is Yu Gi Oh! ZEXAL. Damn, what a good show.

I’ve been watching ZEXAL for some time now, devoting my life to it (I think). I started with the English dub at episode 98 and at first I thought the voices were typical corny anime dub voices but I was instantly pulled in and set it on automatic record. Since then I’ve been obsessing with the show and have fallen in love with it, especially Yuma and Astral.

I didn’t feel like waiting for the next episode so to bide my time I went and watched the first three episodes in English and the next five episodes in Japanese. I was amazed by Continue reading

Ava Bear, Where Art Thou My Ava Bear?


It was a mistake

I am sorry

The day I let you slip from my grasp, I wanted to take you back

I replay the moment, undoing time and ripping up a paper that should have never existed.

I kept saying “we will take her back” but they…they wouldn’t give you back.

It was a mistake, you see.

My heart–our hearts–are torn to shreds without you.

We try to recover, but there is no recovering.

No one can replace you

And only you can repair the gash in my soul that bleeds.

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